God-Jesus-Wild Horses is not your normal story, but rather a culmination of my thoughts and feelings during my first year of intense psychotherapy for childhood-related post-traumatic stress disorder issues, and how my belief in God, Jesus, and wild horses gave me the strength to survive the torture and humiliation I was forced to endure. My therapist asked me to write down my thoughts and when I started, I could not stop. I wrote and wrote and the more I wrote, the more memories and intrusive thoughts would come to mind. It was as if I didn't have any choice in this matter, I had to get the thoughts out of my head and onto paper; otherwise, I was sure I would go completely insane. The more I wrote, the more I was encouraged by my treatment team to publish my writings. My primary goal in publishing is to help others that did go through similar experiences and/or to help those that are currently being abused. My abuse was physical, emotional, and sexual at the hands of my father. I was brought up to honor thy father and mother and didn't fully comprehend what my father was doing was wrong. I thought since he was my father, he had every right to treat me however he chose and my punishment was warranted because I was not able to do anything right. I thought I had a defective brain. The person that was put on earth to love and care for me didn't just abuse me, he tortured me using all means that were available to hurt and humiliate and try to do whatever it took to break my spirit. My father never did break my spirit because God, Jesus, and wild horses were always there for me when I needed them the most.

Michael Lee Johnson is a freelance writer and poet, who created over 320 poems published in over 123 journals and online publications to date. He is a member of Poets & Writers, Inc and Directory of American Poets & Fictions Writers: pw.org/directory. He has been published in the United States, Canada, New Zealand, Australia, Nigeria, Fiji, India, and the United Kingdom. The Lost American is about one man's journey into exile over the Vietnam War many years ago, his struggle, his survival, his road to recovery and strength manifesting itself through his prose and poems. Mr. Michael Lee Johnson lives with his best friend, Nikki, the cat, and is content to be living in a small suburb of Chicago. His first chapbook of poems and prose is available for purchase and download at: http: //www.lulu.com/content/936633. Recent publications: The Orange Room Review, Bolts of Silk (UK), Chantarelle's Notebook, The Foliate Oak Online Literary Magazine, Poetry Cemetery, Official Site of Laura Hird, The Centrifugal Eye, Adagio Verse Quarterly, Scorched Earth Publishing, Ken*Again, Miller's Pond, A Southern Journal, Apollo's Lyre, Fresh! On Line Literary Magazine, Bewildering Stories, Zygote In My Coffee, Pens On Fire, Black Biro (Africa), Sage Of Consciousness, Prose Toad, Literary Ezine, Cosmopsis Quarterly (Book contributor), Mississippi Crow, New Graffiti, Poetry Super Highway, Ink Sweat & Tears, Taj Mahal Review, Hammered Out (Canada), Stellar Showcase Journal, Aboveground testing, and many others. Published in United States, Canada, New Zealand, Nigeria, India, and United Kingdom. Poets would be nothing without small presses.

This paper reports a comparison of three modeling strategies for the analysis of hospital mortality in a sample of general medicine inpatients in a Department of Veterans Affairs medical center. Logistic regression, a Markov chain model, and longitudinal logistic regression were evaluated on predictive performance as measured by the c-index and on accuracy of expected numbers of deaths compared to observed. The logistic regression used patient information collected at admission; the Markov model was comprised of two absorbing states for discharge and death and three transient states reflecting increasing severity of illness as measured by laboratory data collected during the hospital stay; longitudinal regression employed Generalized Estimating Equations (GEE) to model covariance structure for the repeated binary outcome. Results showed that the logistic regression predicted hospital mortality as well as the alternative methods but was limited in scope of application. The Markov chain provides insights into how day to day changes of illness severity lead to discharge or death. The longitudinal logistic regression showed that increasing illness trajectory is associated with hospital mortality. The conclusion is reached that for standard applications in modeling hospital mortality, logistic regression is adequate, but for new challenges facing health services research today, alternative methods are equally predictive, practical, and can provide new insights.

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